I've spoken many times about feeling like our life is in a bit of a holding pattern. While we're working towards goals, our progress is not nearly as tangible as many of the goals we've achieved to this point.
I am finding, more and more, that I can reflect on the progress we have made, and how much better life is now compared to a few short months and years ago. Most often, now, I feel content.
But I still find it hard when someone in the blog world or the real world gets to achieve a goal before me. And in these last few months, we have been witness to so many people getting to live their dreams around this online community. Jealousy may have boiled over. I may have had a hissy fit or two.
After a couple days, I usually realize the sacrifices people have made to achieve their goal, sacrifices I'm not willing or ready to undergo, and I am able to be truly happy for them. And a number of days later, I can go back to be content with my life. It's good enough.
The other day, as we went for our morning run, a quiet 5k, through our manicured residential area, amongst two manmade lakes, I was finally able to realize that my life can be envied. Granted, I don't want someone to be jealous of us, and I'm not sure anyone really is. However, after a few weeks of being jealous of other, it was nice to know that my life was good enough that it could be envied too.